Tuesday, November 27
i officially dont care that t mobile is out...
did sinkewitz turn around and piss in the pit he got booted out of after only playing along with the same song the band had been playing for years?.... sure he did... but hey... what did anyone expect?...
Thursday, November 8
Oniel tests positive...
read about it in cyclingnews...
what i want to know is why a healthy skinny guy is taking phentermine!.. and what doctor would prescribe it to him?!... its pretty bad that the doctor didnt say "dude... you need a psychiatrist..."
its gone a little far when you are taking addictive weight loss drugs... things are out of whack when this is the state you are in and i hope that he uses the 2 years off to get his mind right and beat his eating disorder which he must have...
i can say for sure that i developed a nice case of exercise bulimia (not the purging kind) when i was racing in europe... its not fun... and for me it was a signal that things were a bit out of hand... it started by just trying to lose some weight... you log your training and meals...and then you are counting calories and then you are feeling guilty about eating... and you cant stop the numbers in your head... you see a plate of food and you can say how many calories it is just be looking... and then you keep in your head a running tally of your caloric intake during the day, and you archive the days and weeks like on your outlook e mails... and yes, your mental DB is searchable... its a mind-fuck man... when your shit is stressed out you just get into these little traps and it sucks...
a lot of bikers have these little issues... there is a lot of pressure and it makes you a bit crazy at times...
its hard for me, on the face of it, to feel that this isnt an abuse of this prescription drug... thats the real thing, that we have a guy that needs some help, but people probably wont see that or feel that way... and people probably wont be supportive or empathetic...
what i want to know is why a healthy skinny guy is taking phentermine!.. and what doctor would prescribe it to him?!... its pretty bad that the doctor didnt say "dude... you need a psychiatrist..."
its gone a little far when you are taking addictive weight loss drugs... things are out of whack when this is the state you are in and i hope that he uses the 2 years off to get his mind right and beat his eating disorder which he must have...
i can say for sure that i developed a nice case of exercise bulimia (not the purging kind) when i was racing in europe... its not fun... and for me it was a signal that things were a bit out of hand... it started by just trying to lose some weight... you log your training and meals...and then you are counting calories and then you are feeling guilty about eating... and you cant stop the numbers in your head... you see a plate of food and you can say how many calories it is just be looking... and then you keep in your head a running tally of your caloric intake during the day, and you archive the days and weeks like on your outlook e mails... and yes, your mental DB is searchable... its a mind-fuck man... when your shit is stressed out you just get into these little traps and it sucks...
a lot of bikers have these little issues... there is a lot of pressure and it makes you a bit crazy at times...
its hard for me, on the face of it, to feel that this isnt an abuse of this prescription drug... thats the real thing, that we have a guy that needs some help, but people probably wont see that or feel that way... and people probably wont be supportive or empathetic...
i have decided to come back...
now that i have achieved a good balance in my post biking life i can return to blogging with a clear perspective and less mental clutter and without the feeling that there are ten other things that i should be doing rather than blogging stuff...
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